The road bends through the land, worn and frayed
as a pant cuff torn by a dog,
stretches between the luncheonette and backyard,
between the end of the rodeo
and the funeral for New York,
between the public park and the bar.
The cocktail party where hopefulness
is a middle-aged divorced man
boxed up in a black tuxedo
parading women around the room in sequin
dresses, with powdered faces and moles.
And taking them home, lifted on champagne bubbles,
raising their bodies to his in the gray New Jersey light
before smoking a cigarette at the mirror
and asking them to leave. Between the gas station
in Santa Fe where the sun sears the dust on the backs
of the pumps and the Miami elevator
where a dark-haired woman in a milky jacket
raises one eye as she hits the button for the lobby.
The Jehovah's Witness grips a pamphlet, back to the wall,
white-knuckled and mercurial. Three drag queens boast
fresh manicures. The shoe shiner, bent over
near the urinals, blackens
a pair of scuffed wing tips.
You know us. We've always been here.
Our elbows tacked to the diner counter, our hair greased back,
cigarettes hanging lazily from the corners of our mouths,
half-eaten BLTs and Coke bottles resting
in the crooks of our arms. We wear Stetsons and lean
against fire hydrants, or we pass by in Cadillacs
and on city buses where we stare forward as if hypnotized
by the sound of water slipping from the roofs.
We raise combs to our scalps or stand with our hands
and dirty fingernails in our pockets, attending the dead
wrapped in wool blankets by the roadside
between Winslow and Flagstaff. A woman pushes her tongue
against the inside of her cheek as she drives by,
her daughter clucking to her from the backseat.
We've earned rest and work,
this loneliness that flares around us.
At the Chinese cemetery white flowers spread like hair
across the grass, and along the parade route
a tuba engulfs a man's face. On the assembly line
a joke is drowned by the bell hammering out the clock,
the whole place flush with dusk. Men in fedoras
hold newspapers over their eyes. From the hotel window
Butte, Montana, fans out charred and burnt.
Vietnam and Communism rise like flamingos
from the bay. All around us people mouth,
We've survived, and lose their way
in the supermarket, forget what they've said
or done just yesterday, the man they knew
on Hartford Avenue who bound a seven-year-old boy
with fishing wire before burying him in the basement,
the schoolteacher who bled herself
behind the gymnasium. A woman in a striped skirt
sits in an oak chair in a field overgrown with blonde-headed
weeds. She could be anyone's mother,
settling her worn black hand on her hip.
She is our mother, watching her sons and daughters
pile into convertibles and convention halls, in Belle Isle
and Chattanooga, Detroit and Venice Beach,
the drive-in movie where the wind flaps at a giant figure
pointing a gun in our face. The trolley crawls
out of the fog trailing coffee and gin,
aftershave. We're not going anywhere.
Under our fingertips the jukebox glows.